Draxxoakencrest

So it seems that once again I have neglected many things in my life. I realize it has been because I dont allow myself freedom. I surrounded myself with 'friends' who only caused me stress and distracted me from living as I love to live. Things have changed drastically in my life since my last post. I made it to a strong management position in my job at Hastings; I am truly and fully devoted to one person, one soul, one heart; I have cut all excess stress from my life and that includes a lot of people; I have a clear path and clear head for the future; and finally I can allow myself to regain my artistic vision. I hope to finally make use of

It is amazing what a week will do in your life. It seems such a short amount of time for so much to happen. First, I am enjoying my new job and doing quite well. Second, I seem to have begun to heal, there is a marked change in my emotions and my thoughts. Third might have much to do with second... I have come back in contact with someone I loved greatly, and found that nothing had changed over the years between then and now. It is utterly amazing that years can pass and only seem like emotional seconds. The renewal of Spring has renewed more than the vitality of nature, it has renewed my hope and love.

For those of you who have been keeping track of the ups and downs of my relationship with Ashley there is more. After finally realizing my mistakes and beginning to fix them, after working so hard on making myself better, after preparing my life to be flexible so I can move, it's once and for all...over. She told me she doesn't want anything beyond friendship (of course, dont they always say that?) How can you be just friends when hearing that she just spent 24 hours with a guy makes you so upset that you get a migrane? Some of you will rejoice in her decision, maybe because you think shes right and I can't change. Maybe because it means I wo